new life

assalamulaikum,

hujan renyai diluaq menandakan hari ni adalah hari nak hujan.ahakkx.

seriusly.

just setel down about my feeling. what feel? scare.afraid.not comfort  new environment.think too much.yes that is. that how. that me. afraid and thinking too much. too much secure. feeling unsecured. afraid of losing people that i know or i love. i have problem about self. about feeling. this is bad thing about me. i'm quiet when having a problem.i don't talk much. i don't laugh much. but i eat a lot. haha!

why would this happen too me? i ask myself sometimes..so many problem i should solve. i'm so sad until i can't control it. so i end up with crying everyday at midnight.i cry cry and cry..nobody will cares you. so that what i think. u must walk alone. u must walk with ur feet..u must regain yourself.

not everybody loves me. not everybody don't love me.

and why im speaking english? oh my english.

dalam aku kesusahan, bukan tiada yang membantu. ada. she mean a lot too me.

aku buat keputusan aku akan berpindah..yeah.orang cakap. "apa kau kish,ko duduk dalm bilik.buat dek.lagipun ko bilik sorg kan."

yup.i wish i could do that..tapi aku manusia, aku perlu bercakap, aku ada hati, tak sedih ke sorang2 mcm rasa dalam rumah asing padahal semua itu kawan..aku tertekan..aku tertekan dengan surrounding..aku tak suka meja study dalam bilik..aku tak suka bilik sorang..which they think a lot about me. aku rasa keseorangan. yes, u can talk anything u like.bla bla bla..tapi ko tak rasa apa yang aku rasa.aku hrap ko rasa..

jadi. inilah dia. i'm moving out. aku berhijrah. mungkin rasa aku coward or lari dari masalah. or maybe u can easily 'cop' i am coward. haha.. but not. i'm not coward.i'm just thinking the best. i don't like all of this shit happen..

bila teringat apa yang terjadi.aku rasa marah. sakit hati. kecewa. tapi siapalah aku? u can tell if somebody like u by looking at her eyes. cukuplah status2 twitter dan facebook anda.haha

dan aku berfikir. mungkin ini dugaan untuk aku. ujian untuk aku. tengok aku bersabar tak dalam persahabatan. tapi cukuplah setakat ini.hehe..enough..

hanya Allah yang tahu segalanya yg terjadi. aku harap aku tak simpan marah. dan aku harap bila aku pindah dapat memulakan persahabtan kita semua yang baru. apart far make u fall in love right. haha

hidup aku dekat u bukan  dengan family or pakwe or scndal or sandal. hidup aku dengan sahabat.. so i'll be the best if you treat me with the best. i am the way u treat me.

and untuk sahabat-sahabat yang memahami and banyak membantu. mendengar coloteh. thank a lot.thnks sangat. love u all. eh eh mcam ucapan award pulak. ahakkxx

and tip sikit. macam mana aku handle masalah aku? hanya dengan meluahkan perasaan kepada kawan2 or kepada Allah. recite Al-Quran the best thing. masa tu berjujuran air mata ke landang gandum u know.haha

hari tu aku mengadu kat kwan yg berada di beijing. hanya melalui skype. aku mcam kena terapi..yelah nak mengis depan2 kan malu.haha..so aku pilih nak luah kat org yg nk dgr hot story aku kan..mmg mengis ter esak esak lu taw.haha

because he remind me about Allah. what have i done..macam-macam lah. haaa

ingat Allah
ingat mak abh

and then u will be succeed.
and then u will be fine
and then u will be happy

friend come and go, but sahabat will stay deep into my brain. ehekk

deep in my heart. i still love u guys.

oh ya..thnks untuk kakak sy yang mendengar,membantu,menolong and men men la suma.dan jgn suka merajuk sgt.tak reti pujuk.haha..i wish she doesn't know about this blog. haha..


kesian terima kasih~